Nikita's blog

Don't you know it's gone too wrong
Early warning
How could it have come to this
We're dying trying

It's a long way down
But no one in this crowd
Can stop me hitting the ground
'Cos now I've got

Nothing to hold the falling
So how can I survive this sinking feeling?

Tell me there is more than this
Rocky morning
'Cos you’ve got the best there is
And I want nothing

It's a long way down
But no one in this crowd
Can stop me hitting the ground

'Cos now I've got
Nothing to hold the falling
So…

I can feel you in my life
I can see you in my mind
I can feel you around
In everything, every sound

I can feel you in my life
I can see you in my mind
I can feel you around
In everything, every sound
Feel you now in my heart

I got all my dreams to live, so …
I got my life to believe, so …
I got all my love to give, so …
There is nothing left to fear, so …

I can leave the past behind, so …
I got many…

I don't know what you're looking for
you haven't found it baby, that's for sure
You rip me up, you spread me all around
in the dust of the deed of time

And this is not a case of lust, you see
it's not a matter of you versus me
It's fine the way you want me on your own
but in the end it's always me alone

And I'm losing my favourite game
you're losing your mind again
I'm losing my baby
losing my favourite game

I only know what I've been working for
another you…

The way the light hits the road

He came back to your house
I didn't take it as a promise
Always thought it was a lie
He went too far the fucker
It's not like I owe him money
This is different
So gather your strength and break free
Or you will surely die
Gather your strength don't follow me
'Cause I will surely die
The way my eyes cannot move
The way I hope to be protected
And for one moment I thought
That I was lost among the lights of houses
My dreams of violence
See them coming true

There's a doctor in the house, so be quiet. It's Dr. Firth, and I get
paid more than you. I shall answer your questions no matter how
worthless they are.

Letter from Wanda:

Do champions use drugs?

Wanda,
listen to me very carefully. I'm not only a doctor, but also a
scientist, and I have a fair amount of darts trophies - which makes me
a champion of sorts, wouldn't you agree? (please don't respond to that,
I don't waste time on follow ups).

Most of my life I've been
chasing the dragon, and I think…

Ma annan alla,
sest sa ajasid minus kõik sassi.
Sa vist ei kujuta ettegi, kuivõrd kõik rikkusid...
Kunagi Sa ei kuulanud,
see on lihtsalt kirjeldamatult halb
ning seetõttu liigun ma edasi..

Ma ei unusta, kunagi..
Võib-olla ei usu, kuid sina olid see, kel ei olnud õigus.
Ma tean,
pean olen tugev, astuma sirge seljaga edasi,
palun, ära püüa mind takistada.

Oled unustanud,
mida ma tahtsin ja väärtustasin?
Kas nüüd unustad?
Ei, sa ei saanud sellest päriselt kunagi aru...
Kuid... Kas nüüd saad?

Pean siit kaugele minema saama,
pole mõtet enam eilset meeniutada,
sest on liiga hilja,
kõik poleks…

tühjad sõnad
kõrvus kumisemas
justnagu poleks keegi käinudki
käed põues
lähen talves
kõige lumisemas
ometi
ma pole ära läinudki.....

Laustuisus viirastus
Su valetatud siirus....
ma vaikin sisimas
kuid saju sisse KARJUN...
nii suur on kadumise kiirus
nii pikad
minejate varjud*.*.*.*.*

Kõik ilmas suhteline on

ja suhtelisus ka

on inetuses ilusat

on vastupidi ka...

on see mis on

ja mõnikord

ei ole päris ka

on see mis on

ja mõnikord

ei ole päris ka

saad surematuks surres

kuid sealjuures

surma ka ****

Ma päevast päeva olen ajutine
olen pageja, kes rahu eal ei saa
näe jälle läbi kauge uduvine
paistaks kätte justkui tõotatud maa

Kust leida rahu kui ei ole lõppu
sel muutumisel ainsa pilgu väel
ja ühe pilgu lõpmatuse tõttu
kordumatus kordub iga päev.........